Everyone knows someone who has experienced THIS. There’s fault – blame – a disfunction – inherent in the name “mis-carriage.” It describes how a woman’s body carried her baby poorly… in other words, her baby died. And it *seems* to be the fault of the mother’s body.
What a horrible name for this process. As women, we are hard enough on ourselves in life, constantly comparing ourselves to others- like prettier wives, happier couples, bigger houses, smarter kids… now we compare ourselves and find our worth (or lack there of) in how many healthy children we’ve been able to bear to full term!
For me, my track record sucks. I am literally 1 for 6 in pregnancies. Yes I’ve had 5 miscarriages (this last one being ectopic) and 1 live birth. Our ratio only looks slightly better because we adopted a little girl! So I have 2 children on Earth while 5 look down from Heaven.
The silent struggle is fighting off the lie that “I’ve done something wrong! My body failed me.” The Enemy absolutely wants to take down the confidence of women, especially in regards to her fertility and ability to partake in the creation of more souls that resemble the image of the Father. And so he feeds us these lies that it’s our fault that our baby died. He tries to convince us that if we’d only done more or done less, the pregnancy could’ve ended up differently.
But no- we must fight this urge to give into despair and false guilt. We must call out the author of lies for what he is – a liar! We must hold onto the truths that “we are fearfully and wonderfully made,” and that God “knew us before he knit us together in our mothers womb.”
Dear Baby Leon, please help us feel your presence. Heal my aching heart & help me know the comfort and joy you’ve found in Heaven!
Hope and Healing 